On March 16, 2005 you see, I was one month away from getting married. I had hit "rock bottom." This was suppose to be the happiest time of my life. There was financial struggles, emotionally I was a basket case, I suffered through domestic violence and thought I could fight back, and physically my weight had reached around 230lbs. I had three ulcers, and emotional scars and wounds that seemed like they couldn't be healed. That night on March 16, I walked back into the only place that I knew I would be safe. No it wasn't my house because I literally was locked out, no it wasn't my mother's house because there too brought me much pain because of mental, physical, emotional, and sexual abuse I endured. It was Detroit World Outreach Christian Church (www.dwo.org). Bishop Jack Wallace was teaching on forgiveness. That night I anticipated the alter call. I knew at the end of every service, Bishop Jack Wallace would say something like this, " do you know that you know, that you know if you were to die tonight would you have an eternal place to live? I knew that I wasn't right with God and I wasn't sure if I'd live to see another day. It was at this moment when I rededicated my life and except Jesus Christ as my Lord and personal Savior and asked Christ back into my heart (John 3:3).
That night I had to forgive (Ephesians 4:32) some of those closet people who had hurt me in some of the deepest ways I had ever experienced. But more importantly I had to learn to forgive myself. I now can say that I am healed. God has taken me through this destiny journey and I have learned so much about myself. Everyday I am working on developing myself to be who God created me to be. But there is still an area that I am struggling with. I am not ashamed to admit to it. It in the area of health and fitness. As I mentioned earlier, this journey started seven years ago. I still remember when I was serving at Detroit World Outreach, and I got to the top of the 3rd level out of breath and the Lord spoke to me. He said "that He needed me to prosper in my health so that I can be around as long as He needed me to do the work in the kingdom." Now I know that some people may think or say whatever they want but this is what HE spoke to me. After that time I joined Better Life Fitness Center with Elder Randy and Brenda Woody. I conquered to get my weight to 185. Elder Woody challenged me to drop down to 154 and I still have the hot pink sticky note I wrote that number on.
So I am committed to continuing this journey with only 50 more pounds to lose. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me. I've also picked up a book called, Lose it Fast, Lose it FOREVER by Pete Thomas, a facebook friend and member of my church. I realized that habits I have are because of poor eating habit's that trace back to my childhood and even being in the foster care system. I'm learning to make, "one forever habit at a time." Pete has given some specific challenges and principles to adapt and make a forever lifestyle change. As I go along this journey, I want to keep you posted on my progress. I would like for you to join me! Either a person is committed or they are a quitter. I am not a quitter so I must be committed. I want to share just a few things that I will be following:
1. Committed- I am taking action to deliberately take control of my weight and not allow my weight to have control over me. I will be committed to writing in my journal daily and submitting what I've eaten to a person that I entrust will hold me accountable and help me reach my goals.
2. Confess- Everyday I will confess the word of God over my life of who He says I am. 1John 3:2 (Amplified) Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in every way and (that your body) may keep well, even as, (i know) your soul keeps well and prospers.
Beloved means Amy, so I will insert my name right into the scripture. Also I will confess that "I am strong, I am lean, I will get it in and weigh in at 154! One forever habit at a time.
3.Cultivate- I am cultivating my vessel to prepare me for where God is taking me. I am breaking up old habits and creating new and healthy habit's. I am creating time for myself to prepare for the week with nutritional meal planning, scheduling at least 6 days a week to commit to a minimum of 30 minutes a day doing exercise (where I sweat), and I will be writing as I embark on this journey.
"Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speak"
I am an awesome spirit being with infinite potential, I am made in the image and likeness of my Father, who is God. I am totally forgiven, healthy, whole and I am completely healed. I am the head and not the tail. I am above and not beneath. I declare that I will overcome every obstacle that comes my way. I will never be sick, I will walk in patience and in love. I will not judge, I will be like Jesus and I will bring Him glory in all that I do. I will always minister from a position of Peace, Power, Purpose and Prosperity, In Jesus Name!
GET IT IN!
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