I Declare 154!

It's been well over a year since I sat down and wrote to the world, in this manner at least. This time I am writing to you because I am embarking on a journey. Actually this journey started about seven years ago. Seven years ago my life felt like it was turned upside down but in all actuality it was turned right side up.. Although I gave my life to Christ when I was about seventeen, a junior in high school, I had wavered back into the world after graduating high school. I lived with my fiance in a new home, we had multiple vehicles, motorcycles, we both worked, traveled a little, and we were about to get married! Even with all that and I experienced much hurt and pain. Don't get me wrong, we had some good times. I specifically recall one moment when we financially were struggling to make ends meet. One of my love languages is quality time. We didn't have enough food in the house, we didn't want to go to my mother's for dinner again, so we decided to get on the motorcycle and ride. We rode all the way to downtown Detroit, near Belle Isle, and we stopped at the McDonald's off of Jefferson. I enjoy being near the water. We both got off the motorcycle, went in and ordered a #5 value meal. For those of you who act like you've never eaten at McDonald's, it's there quarter Pounder meal with cheese, super size the fries and a drink. We sat down and shared the one meal together. Everything seemed like it was getting better. We spent that time together, we went to McDonald's and we shared our last dime, we laughed and were near what I enjoy the most which was the water. But that was one of our last joyful moments.

On March 16, 2005 you see, I was one month away from getting married. I had hit "rock bottom." This was suppose to be the happiest time of my life. There was financial struggles, emotionally I was a basket case, I suffered through domestic violence and thought I could fight back, and  physically my weight had reached around 230lbs. I had three ulcers, and emotional scars and wounds that seemed like they couldn't be healed. That night on March 16, I walked back into the only place that I knew I would be safe. No it wasn't my house because I literally was locked out, no it wasn't my mother's house because there too brought me much pain because of mental, physical, emotional, and sexual abuse I endured. It was Detroit World Outreach Christian Church (www.dwo.org). Bishop Jack Wallace was teaching on forgiveness. That night I anticipated the alter call. I knew at the end of every service, Bishop Jack Wallace would say something like this, " do you know that you know, that you know if you were to die tonight would you have an eternal place to live? I knew that I wasn't right with God and I wasn't sure if I'd live to see another day. It was at this moment when  I rededicated my life and except Jesus Christ as my Lord and personal Savior and asked Christ back into my heart (John 3:3).

That night I had to forgive (Ephesians 4:32) some of those closet people who had hurt me in some of the deepest ways I had ever experienced. But more importantly I had to learn to forgive myself. I now can say that I am healed. God has taken me through this destiny journey and I have learned so much about myself. Everyday I am working on developing myself to be who God created me to be. But there is still an area that I am struggling with. I am not ashamed to admit to it. It in the area of health and fitness. As I mentioned earlier, this journey started seven years ago. I still remember when I was serving at Detroit World Outreach, and I got to the top of the 3rd level out of breath and the Lord spoke to me. He said "that He needed me to prosper in my health so that I can be around as long as He needed me to do the work in the kingdom." Now I know that some people may think or say whatever they want but this is what HE spoke to me. After that time I joined Better Life Fitness Center with Elder Randy and Brenda Woody. I conquered to get my weight to 185. Elder Woody challenged me to drop down to 154 and I still have the hot pink sticky note I wrote that number on.

So I am committed to continuing this journey with only 50 more pounds to lose. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me. I've also picked up a book called, Lose it Fast, Lose it FOREVER by Pete Thomas, a facebook friend and member of my church. I realized that habits I have are because of poor eating habit's that trace back to my childhood and even being in the foster care system. I'm learning to make, "one forever habit at a time." Pete has given some specific challenges and principles to adapt and make a forever lifestyle change. As I go along this journey, I want to keep you posted on my progress. I would like for you to join me! Either a person is committed or they are a quitter. I am not a quitter so I must be committed. I want to share just a few things that I will be following:

1. Committed- I am taking action to deliberately take control of my weight and not allow my weight to have control over me. I will be committed to writing in my journal daily and submitting what I've eaten to a person that I entrust will hold me accountable and help me reach my goals. 

2. Confess- Everyday I will confess the word of God over my life of who He says I am. 1John 3:2 (Amplified) Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in every way and (that your body) may keep well, even as, (i know) your soul keeps well and prospers.
Beloved means Amy, so I will insert my name right into the scripture. Also I will confess that "I am strong, I am lean, I will get it in and weigh in at 154! One forever habit at a time.

3.Cultivate- I am cultivating my vessel to prepare me for where God is taking me. I am breaking up old habits and creating new and healthy habit's. I am creating time for myself to prepare for the week with nutritional meal planning, scheduling at least 6 days a week to commit to a minimum of 30 minutes a day doing exercise (where I sweat), and I will be writing as I embark on this journey.

 

"Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speak"

 

I am an awesome spirit being with infinite potential, I am made in the image and likeness of my Father, who is God. I am totally forgiven, healthy, whole and I am completely healed. I am the head and not the tail. I am above and not beneath. I declare that I will overcome every obstacle that comes my way. I will never be sick, I will walk in patience and in love. I will not judge, I will be like Jesus and I will bring Him glory in all that I do. I will always minister from a position of Peace, Power, Purpose and Prosperity, In Jesus Name!

 

GET IT IN!   

 

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